Even though birthdays are generally associated with positive feelings, this may not be the case for everybody. I always cry on my birthday and I’ve never felt bad for doing so. I really like to let myself feel what I need to feel because at the end of the day, I am human and I have feelings — I am not a piece of cardboard.
Why do I cry on my birthday?
My birthday is always a good opportunity for introspection. It is a favorable moment to take a look back at that child born in poverty and ask her if I let her down or not and fortunately, she is happy with who I’ve become. So, I think a lot about my past, my present and my future and I make a kind of balance sheet. I have flashbacks of my memories — I think about all the good moments and all the sad ones as well and I appreciate them. In a nutshell, I realize how loved and how strong I am and that’s a reason why I cry on my birthday.
Another reason why I cry on my birthday is that I am grateful for all the people in my life. They don’t have fish eyes when they wish me all the best and I know they want me to be happy and make my dreams come true moreover that they know my past. Now that I’ve written all that, I realize that crying on my birthday is actually inevitable. There’s too much honesty on my birthday and I am an emotional person.
Maybe deep down I’m feeling lonely
I don’t want to deny that maybe deep down I’m feeling lonely because I am a loner. I have 0 friends. While common definitions of loneliness describe it as a state of solitude or being alone, loneliness is actually a state of mind. Loneliness causes people to feel empty, alone, and unwanted. Loneliness, according to many experts, is not necessarily about being alone. Instead, if you feel alone and isolated, then that is how loneliness plays into your state of mind.
Honestly, I don’t know if I feel lonely. Yes, I’ve said that I have 0 friends but I have fun with a lot of people and obviously, there are some people who love me. Also, I believe in fate and I am at a certain point in my life when everything seems to make sense. I feel like the universe is working for me. Since I was a kid, I’ve had a sense of alingnment. So, I don’t know if I feel lonely or not because I feel loved and on the right track although I don’t have friends.
@holly.rassette does anyone else always cry on their birthday??? the anticipation of my birthday is better than the actual day
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I guess this is my way of telling you that it is ok to cry on your birthday. If you are not feeling excited about your birthday, allow yourself permission to sit with the sadness. What is wrong with being vulnerable for a second? Birthday depression is a real thing and it can have several causes including:
- Depression
- Anxiety
- Fear of getting old
- Feeling lonely because of someone’s loss
- History of family drama on birthdays during childhood
