Words to the child I was

the child I was
the child I was

Baby, the truth is everyone leaves. By choice or because they have to. You can’t stop that and you can’t stop living your life because you’re scared. It doesn’t matter if someone leaves, it matters how long they choose to stay, how much effort they put in.

Everyone leaves, hun. Everyone.

I know that doesn’t make the beginning or the end any easier, but, you always have the middle, you have the all the accomplishments, and the fun, and the good moments, and the bad ones too.

When days get really hard, even bad memories bring you some comfort. Because you remember the good moments that came from them.

Baby, you can’t be scared of life, you just have to live it. Bare your soul to the world, that’s the beauty of it, you don’t know what’s going to happen. I know that’s the scary part but, that’s also the great part. You’re going to be okay. It’s all going to be alright. I know it’s scary now, and I know you’re afraid, and it’s okay to be afraid. Life’s showed you that.

I’ve always been scared, of everything and everyone.

I’ve just…always feared the worst in people. But one day, life showed me that these things happen.

You’re going to meet bad people and you’re gonna understand why natural disasters are named after them. Because whenever you go there, you think of them, and you think of the hurt they caused.

But, baby girl, we all grow up, we all get older and we forgive. Even if we don’t notice that we’re forgiving. One day you wake up and it doesn’t hurt so much. Yes, it’ll always be there, but…it’s not the same.

Sometimes that’s a good thing, sometimes that’s the best thing that could ever happen.

Just know that, wherever you go, whatever you do, or whoever you became, somebody loves you. It doesn’t even matter if it’s now or if it’s tomorrow, or if it’s a year from now. Someone loves you and someone is waiting to love you. Someone is waiting to give you all that they have, maybe this situation isn’t working out for you now, but maybe the next one, will.

I know they say “There isn’t always tomorrow”, and I guess they’re right. There isn’t. But at the same time, there is.

Despite the bad things that happen in your life, you have to be content with it, it is your life regardless.

We only have one, from what we know. Just go out there.

Just…have fun, kid.

Author: Antonia Mihaela


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