The moment I felt ok with being alone, the moment I was enjoying being quiet, the moment I fell in love with me simply because I am who I am, this is the moment I realized I love the woman I am growing into. My voice became louder and so did my confidence. I am my own home. With patience, you grow, heal, and shine. You became the woman you’ve always wanted to be.
I firmly believe that a person who is confident in being quiet and alone is a very dangerous person. But dangerous in a powerful way because you can’t fight with that person. Because that person went through his darkest moments, that person knows how to deal with pain, how to handle it. It’s dangerous to know how to act. We are here to learn, we are young and still growing. Love finds you in a mess, love doesn’t meet you at your best, but when you need it and you don’t even know you do.
I realized that long before I gave up on toxic people. Toxic people who didn’t want to see me happy, to see me grow, to see me as a powerful woman, but to see me as naive and to do what they wanted to. I had to be alone to learn how powerful I am. I had to lose my friends, my friends since forever, the love of my life, or at least the one I thought it was love. It was never love, it was never friendship because if they were “the one” they’d still be there.
IF THEY WANTED TO, THEY’D STILL BE THERE
Why am I saying this? Because I had to lose them all to see the right ones. The right ones, they were always there for me. They loved me in silence, they were there for me even though I was blind and focused on the wrong ones. I am sorry for my friends, for the love of my life. The real ones. We never appreciate what you have. Why do we see this after we lose those things in our life? Those important ones. I was busy losing myself and being surrounded by toxic people. But I didn’t lose them, I’ve just lost precious time.
YOUR TROUBLES WILL GET SMALLER, BE PATIENT
I had to lose myself to be able to achieve this and unfortunately, I went to bed crying myself out every night. I gave up on the love which I thought it wasn’t enough and then got my heart broken over a love which I thought it was real. It was not, because I believed in sweet words, not in my feelings. If I had trusted myself at the right time, maybe it would have been different now, but I am more than grateful that I got to have my heart broken to be the woman I am today.
DO YOUR THING, THEY’LL HATE YOU ANYWAY
I am still learning and still growing, but I am still making mistakes. At least, my tears are gone. I lost them when I gave up on them and instead, I won smiles. I keep on learning and evolving, but one thing is for sure: I trust myself. No one can tear me down. Being in love, happy, being able to enjoy my own company, that’s what I wanted a long time ago. I am trying to make every moment count. I live my life to its fullest, I am trying to be a good friend, a good girlfriend, and a good daughter because the people around me deserve it. The amount of positivity I am surrounded by is unreal.
LOVE YOURSELF SO MUCH THAT YOUR AURA REJECTS ANYONE WHO DOESN’T KNOW YOUR WORTH
Try to be a better you for you and don’t change a thing because someone doesn’t like it. Try to understand that the ones who really love you for who you are and the ones who try to change you are not your people. I got my heart broken by people who didn’t love me for who I was and they wanted to manipulate me. Now, I am surrounded by people who love me for exactly who I am. I may be annoying, I may have anger issues, but I am learning and growing and they know this. They support me, that’s real love. I am this powerful woman today because of this positivity. Take care of your people!